the turning gears.

Time never stops or takes a break, it marches on and on and on...
I feel like Time, my time more specifically, is slowly running out from under me. The pressure to make the statement that I have always felt could give my life the value I ashamedly always felt I deserved is starting to feel over bearing. The pressure is nothing new, my struggle to find myself is implicit in this blogs existence. That is what this is about...

Yet Time marches on.

I find that randomness and circumstance are often misdiagnosed as common occurrences. When we study history we look at actions that are finished and we use hindsight to examine motivations and spot patterns which outline of the cognizant gears that move a human mind. This is where I am in folly, for using the past to see into the future is a ruse of the Machine. Humanity is individual and immediate it is folly to manipulation and to misrepresentation. A human being is capable of moving in all directions at once, and this is a problem for the machine.

Well Lets Continue Shall We.

I tend to see patterns and regular trends in the world around me which I try to process and use as a justification for my actions.
Collecting inputs acting accordingly this is how all things act.

Well if we look at all of these things as moving parts, then in order to change our disappointments, minimize our regrets, and create a more stable and happier direction we must either A.) Shift our paradigms away from the truth.
Thereby ignoring the bad and explaining away the causes to obstacles that will ultimately build up and overtake
OR
B.)Change the inputs and the moving parts in our artificially create our immediate surroundings so as to facilitate optimization.

Reduce, Reuse, Recycle.

And nothing here maybe revolutionary but lets analyze.
First Option B for this is the Machine at work. Depending on ones personality this is either easier or more difficult, but it has many downfalls. For one I have always found that taking on this kind of lifestyle takes away the human factor in the grind against the machine. Who will remember you when you throw away your interpersonal relationships for selfish ambition. Who will care if you earned or achieved or created something that could have been just as easily been reproduced by a robot, with the correct programming.

Don't make the argument here that we are all robots, that is not what this is about.
We are not robots, we may all be programming one another, but that does not a robot make.

Option A isn't an action, its a a fancy footloose over self delusion. Creating your own reality is absolutely fundamental to being human. Living life without a personal philosophy is possible, but absolutely unacceptable in my eyes.

Option B is as inhumane as humanity can get. Replacing broken parts, and avoiding negative influences, you might as well rip off your own arm or only spend your time with "a better class of people."

So I got all the way here and still no answers. Nothing new anyway.
But I feel like I should leave something behind in case this pace continues and I run out of time before I finish.

"If you bullshit the world around you, the world will give you bullshit back."

-edited
Both Options A and B are black holes, the Middle ground Option C, can be found in Conviction

-Federico